today was a fun day. i went to solvang to see my granparents. it was raining all day. it was fun but i got so cold! we went shopping and out to lunch at the golf course my grandpa plays at. there were deer out in the rain on the course and they were so beautiful, just laying out looking so majestic while the rain fell down on them. it inspired me to play in the rain even more. my hair didnt dry all day and i got to wear this bucket hat my grandma had. i guess i looked allright because i managed to have some looney guy stare at me in a children's toy store- it was pretty freaky. Joe says i get into a lot of those situations,..i guess i do. i dont know why. i must just attract the old pervy guys. its cute to see all the retired old people farting around their little haven away from all of the b usy world. i would love to live in solvang, but i would feel to isolated after awhile. the wildlife is amazing. i get to see mountains, horses, goats, deer, and just amazing scenery everytime i go. the thing is that all the old people have nothing to do all day so they invest their time in other things. for my grandma its the Bush campaign, and her christian science stuff. my grandpa cooks. i dont agree with what my grandma thinks about bush but i wouldn want to damper the enthusiasm she has for him. my grandma is so adorable, i love her so much. she got her hair done today because they are going to the 50th college reunion for stanford. jesus,..thats a long time. My grandpa is so great. i realized today why my dad is so great- hes alot like his dad. they both have a certain charm and joking manner, and both like to assumne things. they both were shocked at the fact that im vegitarian but both find it as a challenge and use it to be able to make new things. my grandpa made a new dish just for me- it was so nice, he said i inspired him to make something different. i felt really special that he would do that for me. i managed to find some thrift stores among the richy rich gift shops and i got some clothes. i also bought a new hackey sack- thank the lord. i missed Joe tremendously- its horrible not being with him,..especially in the rain because i know how much he loves it. yesterday we went out for our one month anniversary. it was grand. i had so much fun. today as we drove up to solvang i thought about how much i loved him. i feel like i could never stop loving him. alot of things reminded me of him. i loved being all warm and cozy in my granparents' house today and knowing that i was with the people i love and that i had someone at home who loves me too. i feel really relaxed. im happy that tomorrow im going to spend some time with my love, and get all warm and toasty. the moments that i share with him in silence while he holds me are my most favorite times with him. we dont have to talk, we just know that we care so much about eachother. its as if the outside world stops and its just me and him, alone together. im so happy with him. i missed him alot today. i feel like its the night after christmas. theres that happy and releived atmosphere. That last few hours of the day that you want to hold on to forever and just bask in the happiness of it all. im truly happy right now, i wish that i could say that for everybody, but we gotta start somewhere.