hmm,... i feel really grateful that i have a boyfriend who loves me so much and loves me for who i am. im always thinking about how i wish i was a better person because i dont deserve someone as sweet and nice as joe. i wish i could be a better girlfriend, i wish i had the ability to think before i say things. i really have no control over my words and i end up hurting him. i wish i could start over and makes things better and be an absolutley perfect girlfriend. its so wonderful and scary to go from having no one ever to being able to love someone more than anything in a matter of weeks. i love you so much Joe. please dont ever doubt that or question it. you are why i look forward to school,..why i look forward to those last few minutes of lunch where i get to be in your arms, to kiss you and know that im with the person that makes me the happiest. i love how i still get butterflies in my stomach when i hear the doorbell ring when you're at my door. i love the sweet little things you do that make me wish i could tell you how much i love you. you are everything to me joseph, i love you.