I should write here more. Chronicle things, because I really enjoy looking back on them and remembering...and then looking at the dates and wondering how much between them I really missed and don't remember anymore.

Except my life just varies wildly between long stretches of content stability and crunching stress usually related to money. So I don't even know what to write about. It's better than emotional turmoil at all hours of the day, and it's better than feeling fucking disgusted with myself for simply existing. It just makes for a lot less exciting drama here.

So I guess have this, future self, and when you look back on it, know that when you were 19-and-20, your life was stable and you really didn't mind it.

Gonna have to shake it up though. I'm this close to a rut; I can feel it.

~Katie