So I guess I'm just a selfish person then.

I don't really care about what happens unless I can get what I want out of it, and I suppose that means I'm not very nice. I really don't know why they put up with me, because half the time, I feel like I don't care what happens. Except of course I do--except not really, because I care about what happens to the extent that it lets me do what I want.

Basically I want my plots, and I want to keep it going as a place to further my plots. I am a bad admin.

Instead I spend all night looking at other places, where I know I won't be happy.

I'm also a worse person with the internet, so I don't even know why I bother anymore.

I sent off my application.

Fuck.

~Katja