I meant Nothing

Feeling: placid
you fucking lied to him. Decived him for your needs. I trusted him, And i thought he trusted me. But then you lied And he went to your side. He beilives what he wants to believe. You are the one who fucking decives. Chad you ass i was neer your friends. Because of the damage you do When a person comes unglued. You arent there You dont ever care, Only for yourself. Because they are your spares. ++++++++_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+__+_+_+_+_+_+_+_ To put it simply a person told the one i love and trusted that i was a worthless lieing basturd and he beilives him. The thing is. I could never lie to the one i love and i know what it is like to be used, abused, and tossed to the side. Are you that jelous chad that every time i get a friends you have to try to steal them away? Are you jelous? Are you that stupid? You know it is funny because every time you came over, you and Jessie and melony would fuck up my house and i would always be the one to clean i up. I was the one who always covered for your asses well there is a reason i am not your friend any more. It pissed me off. And i just didnt need your shit. To bad you dont have anyone of your own to really love and trust. do you have love? where is she? are you gay? just admit it. you made out with jessie. You mean nothing to me. you never did.and you will never faze or bother me again. =-=-=-=-=--=-==--=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=---=-=-==-= Eclipse if you truly love/loved me like you say or said you do or did. then why the fuck are you gonna beilive someone like chad who isnt my frind and i dont like? it makes perfect sence why he would do something like this. I gave you my heart, soul, body, mind. And if all you can do is waste it and throught it all away like it meant nothing. Then that means you never loved me! Too bad i loved you. i guess it was the wronge person. i guess it was a mistake. and it is not something i will make again master. ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+ Navybrat08: THAT JERK! I HATE CHAD!! FUCKING BITCH. Eclipse2: Do you trust me yes or no? If not then let all of this go. I need your trust to be a friend and a brother to you. If i dont have that then i dont have anything with you. I love you because you got to know me and i trusted you. And without trust i would have never loved you. And if you dont trust me then i guess it was a mistake.
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you know, i used to be very close to that type of person...and i believe youre right about that.
[Anonymous]
mark holy crap! when did this happen?
i cant belive chad would do something like that to you. i knew he fucked up your house everyt ime he came over but that was really going to far.ytf wouuld he do that yto you and you-know-who? did he know that you to had something going on? i would not have told chad for my life if you had its ok though.next time you know better. i hope things work out call me later ok?on the cell after 9.thanx val
hey... Chad Matthews... I hate him too, don't worry... I don't know what to tell you except that that has happened to me too... and he believed them as well... *HUGS* call me tonite around 8ish
yeah...it does kinda piss you off knowing that you once trusted that person with your heart, and they ripped it out of you and threw it on the ground and walked away...

but mostly, it hurts :
[Anonymous]
what doesn't Chad do??? (what exactly did he say, if you don't mind me asking...)

dang, that's pretty cool. where do you live? because where i live kois are around 26 dollars & i am not about to dish that out. ;/

someone is a big spender. :D
ive lost my love as well. i know that its hard. it feels like the end of the world.
all that you Really can do is just keep looking forward. the past is the past and looking back is taking steps backwards in life.
keep moving forward the best that you can, and youll meet new people every day. life can change in an instant and you just have to think of that.
i hope all gets better for you.
[Anonymous]
painkillers mostly. im allergice to a lot of stuff and sleeping medication doesn't work..but painkillers are enough to give me the effect i want..
Hey there. well nothing much here just pretty sleepy relaxing and stuff. what about you?
Thanx =)...I read ur entry...All I can say is try and keep ur chin up bcoz things will eventually get better....And, if u ever need to talk or anything...
thats true...guys can be a bit stupid sometimes when it comes to relationships (no offense).

yeah, i hate people who seem to have no goal in life but to fuck up other peoples lives. people like that should die
[Anonymous]
they're both gold fishes. & sometimes i glance at them & think they could be koi. i was actually thinking about buying some kois but i am cheap as crap.

yeah, my name is supposed to make fun of people who type like that.
i can understand that you would want the one you love back. but you have to wonder...why did he listen to chad if he loves you? shouldnt he have come to you before making any descisions for himself?

sorry...but that seems a little off to me. and i think thats something that you should seriously question.
[Anonymous]
well...good luck.

assuming that you want them back...
[Anonymous]
i cant say i blame you for wanting revenge...i want it too... but i suppose its in a slightly different way.

im sorry about losing the one you love...any chance of getting them back?
[Anonymous]
i see...that sucks. so becuase this guy, you lost the one you love?

i'd kill him.
[Anonymous]
i was visiting a friend in the hospital today. it brought back memories of a loss from 3 years ago. all is well. just feeling a little haunted.

as far as chad goes, some people are toxic in your life. get rid of him. hes not a good friend from what i can see.
[Anonymous]
yep...love issues with one person, trust issues with another. sucks, doesnt it?

so whats your story?
[Anonymous]