Spurratic Love

by nightshade
Listening to: System of a Down
Feeling: infuriated
Love so erratic Time spurratic Heavenly atracted, to you Shoot me all ready. I love you This is so weird Me in love Happy around This feeling so profound Crazy i know. But i love you. So..... Does it matter? No
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most, try all the fucking time... espicially when u hate love as much as i do, and yet its all around me every fucking day... GRRRR
who knows... and from my standing point, it would be weird, but I'd be happy for you... i'm always the one on the giving congrats end, never on the congraluting end... strange huh?
i always have hated it... i think its stupid and is only meant to cause pain in the end... i guess because i've never been on the recieving of that kind of love... i sort of have come to think that it doesn't exist
i'm scared... dave hasn't replied my email and he tends to reply them asap...
its never done me any good... i don't believe in it or its exitence... and even thru all of that... i'm ok... its weird... i expected to feel lost and all that, but its become a part of my life... that's why i seem so distant sometimes... i don't trust easily, espicially not with guys... and trust me... i can gurantee you that u have my trust... ur one of the few, but u do have it... and i've learned to live off of that
hey... i've got to go for the nite, but i'll talk to ya tomorrow... read my latest entry... its about *him*... nite... *HUGS*
hey... of course i trust you... you've always been there for me when i've needed you... that sucks... sure... i loved to help... anybody who hurts my friends deserves to die... i kno that its a part of life, but i've moved past that part... i don't care about it and i don't let it or its consequences and results get to me or bother me...
besides... i don't need that type of love to live... i have my family and friends... and even if i did have that type of love i wouldn't let it consume me... nothing comes before my family and you guys... nothing... and sure as hell not some dumb-ass guy (no offense) that's gonna end up breaking my heart anyways
yeh i kno he is... that's why i had to let go... so that i didn't get hurt... see ya buddy
night