I am back muahahahahaha. I had so much fun. I went to Manhatten and went shopping too. But i will NEVER EVER walk from the New York Penn Station to Rockafeller Center again. IT WAS HELL WALKING THERE AND BACK!!! IT YOU EVER GET THE CHOICE DONT DO IT!!!!!! But yeah i have another preumvatated predicament. You know. Does he love me or not? I mean he has a gf and he is all worked up about the crap and stuff. But he still says he loves ma AND ALL THAT JAZZ. I am just starting to wonder now. Because now that i won the poetry contest he is always hitting me up fior money. First i said yeah i would give him 5,000 but now he is all like. "Well since i triggered the dream thing i should get more shouldnt i?" I was like no. I worked hard on that poem and he just kept at it an i was like fine whatever. (i was thinking this) not like you give a damn anyways. as long as you have sex, money, and a person like me to fall back on then its all dandy to you.(ends here) The thing is i love him. and i need to know if he is using me or is he just nervous about things. godddamn it. i wish i knew. it would save me the time and the heart ach. as if my heart hasent ached enough.