Listening to: Opium Kadavers (my band)
Feeling: secretive
Laboratory of the eternal brain
All of the memories in vain
The rushin feeling of remorse
Is just another problem like devorce
An apathy of everything
And a wanting on nothing
Left alone for centries to come
Waiting for things to be undone
Ebony woods in his back yard weep
Sing the morbididty while he sleeps
Into the darkness and up the hills
Where the black blood had been spilled.
Pain and damnation
Rule this land now
To all who are abdatious
And the weak abound
Rapturous voices ring in the air
All because of one little scare
He runs away deeper and deeper
Because in his home lies his own reeper.
His screams are within but loud to the touch
All in his head and the pain not so much.
Rattles of the bone
Around the carved stone.
The graveyard lit by a cresent moon
All in the spring night's tune.
Animals sing their last and lonely cries
As the two kiss goodbye.
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This is from a dream of mine that has been reocurring. It is about me and the one i love.
It is about running away into my back woods where there is a graveyard. And there we phuck. And the night is filled with sining insects. There we stay untill it id dawn and then we run back home.
I adopted a cute lil' gothy fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
I adopted a cute lil' ninja fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
yeah...im just angry...
yknow, parents can be so...URGH!!
....and boyfriends?
...i swear sometimes...
i just wish hed see how much he hurts me...
i guess he just knows ill forgive him everytime so it doesnt matter to him anymore??
*sigh*
...i never did ask, whats ur name?
-stella
thanks for caring...
and yeah...guys are...URGH!
lol.
i wish it wasnt that way though...
aww, im sorry its that way w ur family....
i wish it was better....
if u ever need to talk yknow, im here...
hoping to hear from ya soon,
stella
*overatedlush*
that is so fucking great. wut r u going to publish?
yeah people suck so much.
id have committed suicide a long time ago if i wasnt such a pussy.
oh well.
..... i adopted a ninja fetus too a long time ago. i dont know where he went tho.
i liek ur diary to..what a great dream..is it about u n ur bf..or another u love?
about this guy you like...
have you ever actually ya know... tried to talk about your feelings for him with him?
i mean... i dunno much about gay/bi stuff.. cuz im not... but like how do you flirt with him... are you sure hes flirting back with you when he does?
why dont you just talk to him about your feelings and see where you stand with him. i bet itd help.
if i was you.. i think id actually sit down and talk to him about it.. but im just overly outgoing.
i hope it works for you though.
just try not to let it all build up inside.. you really should talk to him.
i think you might only be hurting yourself by not saying anything.
and separation of church and state has always been complete bullshit
i couldnt tell him how i felt, cuz really i loved two people at the same time.
ive lost him forever though...
so.
yeah...
want some cherry cheesecake?
i have to type a report too.
good luck