day after xmas.
what a disappointing day. not in terms of not getting what i want - i stopped caring about that when i was 7.
but after a year of building this holiday up, i spent it watching Seabuiscut across a loud room full of people who i've grown up with yet i don't ever talk to - not even when they're in the same room.
and now, i am going skiing/snowboarding with Bonnie and Leanna.
sometimes it bothers me that they're in a grade below me.
i feel like a freak or a loser because i spend so much time with these sophmores.
but still, they're really a lot of fun.
but they seem to be taking over all my time.
lauren. i love her so much.
jordan - CRAZY little child. i miss him too.
margaret - i miss her, but not with sam. sam bothers me A LOT. and they're always attached at the hip. margaret could do a lot better.
dee - what can i say? we drifted apart at the same time - but she has laressa, amanda sophmore, and all the other people that are cool, but i have nothing to say to them. it seems like a lost cause.
and then there's nick. nick nick nick. it's just like last time, i can only take small portions of him at first, and then after that it's all good.
kevin - i'm afraid he's going to ruin himself.
i can tell he needs love so much - but i know that he's not going to find it where he's looking in.
whitney is gone, until next year. i'm glad that i spent time at her house b4 she left, even if it was just for a half hour. i really missed her.
hmmmm..... i miss all these people, when they're all right in front of me....
SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME!
damn this ski trip! i mean, i want to go.
i'll give laur-dawg a call tomorrow.
if you read this, gus gus, I LOVE YOU! je mourais sans vous!

wow, i realize now why a lot of people think i'm lesbian.
lol.