why is my ex-boyfriend such an asshole? i didn't think it was possible for a person to be so bouyant and yet so belligerent at the same time. he defies all rational ways of social interaction, yet he still expects people to put up with it. and they do. why is it? why do i put up with it? why, after all the shit i've been through and everything he's put me through, why do i feel attached to him? i gave my heart to him once. now it feels like a little piece of me will always be enamored with him - and that's not a good thing. i want to be free of him. i wish he'd just graduate already; i wish he'd gone to a different school when he moved to his mom's. i wish he'd stop being such a pain in the ass. i wish we could be friends, because it might put my insane, unjustifiable infatuation to rest.