mmmmmmmmm....sitdiary where i spewed my thoughts when i was just a youngin' i'm surprised i even remembered about this thing. i've realized my life moves in cycles, huge ones that span over the years and smaller ones that go from month to month. of me feeling like i've got it all together and then me ripping it all apart. all by myself. it's all a function of the insecurities in my mind. and i've got to stop it somehow. before i let on to others how very broken i am in reality and before i ruin something that's become very precious to me.