so, yeah, i am very very drunk right now. and i said i wouldn't so that anymore. i just don't care. i just don't see the point. what is the point of like if you can't enjoy it? i'm not enjoying it here. it's like a repeat of middle school. and that is terrible. in the meanwhile, i can't wait to be in love. i can't WAIT to be in love for real. i look forward to it every day. i can't wait. i will give my whole self. and it will be maginficent. if i get hurt, it will be worth it this time. because i will really love. for real. for sure. this next time. for real.