So, Landen likes this mystery girl. It's sad...........because I want it to be me......but I'm pretty darn sure that it's not. I just want to cry. I keep listening to these sad songs over and over again, just to see if they'll make me feel better. But they never do, but I still keep listening to them. I feel so lost! I hope by tomorrow I feel better. I just wish that I could cry again, but I promised myself that I wouldn't cry over Landen anymore. It's a so called "Healing process" for me. But I think it's doing more damage to keep it in. I think I'll just cry tonight. One last time. So I can feel some relief. Heres a song that discribes my feelings right now. So I Thought: All your twisted thoughts free flow To everlasting memories Show soul Kiss the stars with me And dread the wait for Stupid calls returning to us to life We say to those who are in love It can't be true 'cause we're too young I know that's true because so long I was So in love with you So I thought A year goes by And I can't talk about it On my knees Dim lighted room Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this I'm not faithless Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose Ignorance is bliss cherish it Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold Believe it not And fight the tears With pretty smiles and lies about the times A year goes by And I can't talk about it The times weren't right And I couldn't talk about it Chorus Romance says goodnight Close your eyes and I'll close mine Remember you, remember me Hurt the first, the last between Chorus Romance says goodnight Close your eyes and I'll close mine Remember you, remember me Hurt the first, the last, between And I'm praying that we will see Something there in between Then and there that exceeds all we can dream So we can talk about it Chorus Romance says goodnight Close your eyes and I'll close mine Remember you, remember me Hurt the first, the last between Chorus Romance says goodnight Close your eyes and I'll close mine Remember you, remember me Hurt the first, the last healing And I'm praying that we will see Something there in between Then and there that exceeds all we can dream And all these twisted thoughts I see Jesus there in between And all these twisted thoughts I see Jesus there in between It's funny how a song can say what you feel inside, and not having it intend to. ~Britney Francis~