Have we lost the spiritual side of the relationship? That was my favorite part. I miss it. I miss talking to him about it. I miss seeing the love for the savior in his eyes. It's still there, but it's not shinning bright like it used to. The Kissing has become too much. It's made the light in his eyes fade away a little. I don't want it to fade away. The Lord is more important than me. And I hope he still knows that. He looks at me, wanting me, thinking things he shouldn't be thinking. He's a guy though. It's expected. He looks at me with deep love in his eyes. The kind of look that makes me know that everything will be alright and that his love is pure. But it's just those thoughts. He's shared them with me. They flatter me, but at times, I don't want to hear it. I just want him to hold me tight. No lips touching, just him holding me. Holding me and whispering in my ear that he loves me like he does every once in a while. He doesn't do it as often anymore. He still looks at me with those eyes and tells me to my soul that he loves me. But then he kisses me with that passionate kiss that only married couples should share. I don't want that kiss sometimes. I want that kiss where it's soft and full of love. Not lust. He gives me those kisses from time to time. But the lust is taking over. I have to stop it. I have to tell him. I like the lust too much. I don't want to like it, but oh...I do! That's what's bad about it. I like it way to much, and so does he. I want the spiritual love we had back. I want my Landon for eternity back. I want the Landon who looks at me straight in the eyes, with only pure love in them, who says, "I want to be with you for eternity. No matter what it takes. I love the Lord more than you, but you are my second. You will always be my second." I want that more than anything! I don't want him thinking things he shouldn't just because my lips and my touch are so desirable to him. He says that I'm the best kisser he has ever kissed, and he meant it. And I have to say, I have never kissed anyone like I've kissed Landon Humpherys. I like it a lot. But I have to control myself. He has to be a worthy missionary! I will be worthy, and he WILL be worthy! I love him way to much to do that to him. But how do I tell it to him? ~Britney Francis~