GOODNESS ME AND LOADS OF STRESSED OUT BRAINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy fetch my friends!! I'm screwed up! I am unquestionably, tremendously and most definatly SCREWED UP!! GAH!! Heck it all!!!! Heck it all to........HECK!! I have to talk to someone!! No really! I need to! Someone specific!!!! Most of you know who. BUT HOW!!! HOW THE BLOODY HELL HOW!!! I am up at odd hours of the day, waiting!!! But for WHAT!!!! Holy crap! I am going out of my flipping mind here people!!!! WHAT AM I WAITING FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????...........................................sigh....I know what for........sigh...........it's him. My heck! I should be over this by now! I should be done! But.........but something inside just wont let me let go! For some reason....sigh......I have to hold on when all I really want is to let go! At least that's what my head is telling me. My heart is another story. It's telling me to hold on like hell and never let go! Because.....If I let go, I will loose something sooooo close to my heart, and it will break even more than it already has been. I don't know if my heart can take this anymore!......It has been broken to pieces as small as sand grains...............is it wrong to want something so bad that you know you can't have? ~Britney Francis~