There are so many things I want to just spill out!!!! Just spill everything out!!!! I don't want to keep everything in anymore, I just want to let the people I don't want to hurt know what is really going on! I'm writing this one person an email today...telling him things I was too afraid to say for the fear that I might hurt him....hurt him bad!!! And I don't want to hurt him! He's one of my really good friends!! That's why I haven't told him of my secrets concerning him because I didn't want to hurt him, but I think I'll hurt him even worse now...I should have just told him sooner so it wouldn't be such a big deal! I hate that I'm nice! Not to be all "un-humble" n' all But I really am too nice for my own good! And don't worry, It's not Landon I'm talking about. But someone who is dear to me. Not that Landon isn't dear to me! He's so close to my heart that it isn't even funny!!! So now that you know one of my topics I'm just going to let it ALL OUT!!! I'm not afraid to say it anymore, just because it might hurt people! I don't care anymore! I can't hold it in any longer!!!!! BANANA!!! I am in love with Landon Thomas Humpherys!!! I wasn't going to have a boyfriend until after high school, but Landon came along and I couldn't help but fall in love with him!!! I have never had a boyfriend who has treated me so good!!! He's not afraid to hold my hand or kiss me in public! He's not like my other boyfriends I've had. He's not afraid to show how much he loves me in front of others for the fear that other girls might see! He treats me like I'm a Queen and I've never felt so loved! I know what you're all saying, "HE'S GOING TO HURT YOU, YOU IDIOT!!!" You want to know something, so what!! Everyone makes mistakes and everyone regrets things in their lives! I'm the same way! Why condemn someone for something ALL of us have done!!!! Just let him live and grow! Just like me and all of you! We've all done things we regret in the past, but we learn from them! That's the point of life! I trust him! We have gone through something recently that makes me cry a lot and makes me hurt, but I am in the process of getting over it! I trust him with my life!! But if it all comes down to this crossroads coming in my path again, I won't let it happen again! This relationship might not last, or it might last forever, *knock on wood* but I'm just glad that I have finally seen in someone I hope to see in all of the guys I meet. Someone who will treat me like how I should be treated! Someone who will show me that he loves me and that he's not afraid to be himself and accepts me for who I am!!! I'm not afraid to act myself around him!!!! He loves me! And I love him! And if any of you have a problem with it, I'm sorry, but you can't change my mind. Only he can! So please, quite spreading rumors about me and him and stop judging us! We're happy and that's all that matters to me!!!!!! And if we do break up :(, which I really, really hope not, then I have found the kind of guy I want to marry some day! Wow! That feels SOOOOO DAMN GOOD!!!! *pardon my French* ~Britney Francis~