Listening to: Mr. Brightside- The Killers
Feeling: unmotivated
OK well honestly, just screw everything I said about how dan and I are better. Yesterday everything was going good and then for some reason he freaks out on me. He says that he cant talk to me because we have nothing to talk about. Then he goes on to tell me how much he likes his friends more then me and how atleast when hes with them he has fun. Then he adds how he misses being single and that he hates our relationship and that he doesnt know what he wants..but of course hes too much of a pussy to break up with me. He even told me that he wont break up me, he'll wait for me to do it. what the fuck is that all about??..I dont wanna break up -again- I'm sick of it. We're just back together the next day. I mean and then he says all this stuff to me, all these awful things, and is like well bye. He didnt wanna talk anymore cuz he was tired. I was like just break up with me if thats what you want and hes like im tired i dont know what i want. So yeah we barely talked at all today until he dropped me off. I told him I didnt wanna break up and he said he wanted to be with me but he said that our relationship was shitty. I dont know what he wants from me? He does not put one ounce of effort into this and if I say that to him he says that Im the one who doesnt try and that not everything is his fault when actually it is! I dont do anything to hurt his feelings, i talk to him, i tell him all the time how much i love him, I try to be affectionate with him but im the one thats not trying? He used to be the greatest boyfriend, everyone was jealous of us and wished they had somehting like us now people hope they dont turn out like us..I honestly dont know what to do? I feel useless like anything I say or do doesnt matter to him. I dont think I'm important to him anymore and all i want is to be his girl cuz I love him and not take his crap, its so stressful. I just need some advice. I hate loving someone, it sucks. Helppp
/ keep me posted on the last entry too
and um make him come to you, its not fair if you put everything into it. he'll realize it sooner or later. hes a guy. just give him space if he "really wants it" cause then when hes got it he's gonna get sick of not being around you