Welllll...I had my party last night which for awhile was sooo boring but then once night fell we had a good time. Since our hottub wasnt working my neighbors were so nice and said we could use their pool and hot tub while they were out so of course we all went in i didnt feel like changing so i went in my bra and shorts and then dan and his friend john came which made me sooo nervous. Dan was kinda weird around me for a bit and didnt really talk to me and we tried to get him and john to come in and finally they came in but we had to flash them first which they didnt even see cuz it was pitch black out, haha..and then they came in with their boxers and we just had chicken fights and goofed around and then we decided to go skinny dipping and then of course my neighbors came home and tunred on the lights so we freaked out and got changed and then just swam for a bit more, then some of us got in the hottub and dan and I made out??..lol, so yeah. Then we went back inside and had cake and the dan and john had to leave so i walked dan out and we started talking and hes like i knew that was gonna happen if i came and i was like but u came anyways? and we started talking about other things cuz the night before he almost died cuz he had a wipe out in his car and he was talking about how there must be a reason hes still here and stuff, and then we got talkingabout us and he was like what do you just want me to fall back in love with you? and I was like so you dont love me? and hes like no i do. and i was like well why cant we be together and he just about how he didnt really want a girlfriend and how he had a lot of stuff going on..and i was like i've changed and hes like i know and i dunno i was just like well can we be friends and hes like well it takes time but then hes like yeah we can and i was like can we hang out and stuff, like maybe go to lunch and he was like yeah..and i was like i dont get it if we both wanna be together then why arent we and he didnt really have an answer but he said that he would talk to me more but he said things were weird now and i was like they dont have to be..and then he said that he would talk to me later online which i was surprised about and he did IM me but i wasnt there and he was just like i know people are spending the night at your house so I'll just talk to you tomorrow which for once ia ctually believe..but when he left last night he started to walk away and then came back and gave me a hug which wasnt great and then i gave him a kiss on the cheek and then he gave me a bigger hug..so I am very happy right now, im not getting my hopes up but atleast we're on a better path then before and it was soooo good seeing him and kissing him after not seeing him for over a month...hopefully things just go up from here..I'll write more about the party later i just needed to tell about this!