Well, nothing has gotten better at all. Dan's mind is pretty made up over this, but i dont understand how someone just out of the blue decides that they definitly dont wanna be with the person they love anymore cuz he keeps telling me he loves me. Then he was like well maybe over the summer we'll get back together but then hes like but i dunno. I think some of his friends are saying shit to him to make him feel this way but maybe not. ughhh. However, Dan and I are actually gonna talk face to face tomorrow, I hope that goes well. Like i really wanna be with him but if he doesnt feel that way then I will settle for being friends cuz he is this huge part of my life and without him in it, then it would be pointless. It sucked though cuz yesterday my mom got these pictures developed and when I saw them they were all of me and dan and we had these huge ass smiles on our faces and we just looked so happy and he looked so cute so that resulted in me crying myself to sleep. I felt so pathetic though cuz i called him yesterday and I was pretty much begging him to stay with me and hes just like no, i cant do it anymore and i promised it would get better but he said he didnt believe me. But today we talk on the phone for 5 minutes and we decided to be friends and hopefully when we talk tomorrow we'll figure out what friends mean. This just sucks, When i see him in school it depresses me so much but i know i have to keep a smile on and laugh so he doesnt see that im dying inside. I just need to get over this somehow but honestly i dont wanna ever be with someone else. All my friends are like you'll find someone else or whatever but they dont understand, i dont want anyone else. Dan and I are so comfortable around eachother theres no other person I could be like that with..i just dont see how he doesnt feel the same way? I dunno, i gotta stop talking about it. 3 days of school left, i guess im looking forward to it.