well so much stuff is going on... Molly is leaving for Europe, shes gonna be gone three weeks but molly is usually the one that goes away for long periods of times so its gonna be normal still but i'll miss her cuz I've seen her every single day for the past 2 weeks.. Elyse gets back from south carolina on Saturday, cant wait to see my best friend, seriously I feel so weird not talking to her in 4 days, shes the only person i confide everything in, like i tell my friends everything but its easier to explain exactly how Im feeling to elyse.. Amanda gets back from her cruise on sunday and then tuesday she and the sanders are leaving for field hockey camp, my sister is in Ocean City Maryland without me..seriously i was suppose to go on vacation with either elyse or val and because of drivers ed i couldnt, blahh..so basically everyone is going or went somewhere except for me..yayyy..its so weird to think that today last year i went to Florida with everyone, that feels like just yesterday, no effing joke..woww, time goes by really fast, its kinda scary Ummm..went to the foot doctors today and lucky me gets to wear a cast and then this other thing over it which makes walking a bitch and they had to give me a cortizone shot and let me tell you my foot fucking hurt like a bitch...I have to wear this cast thing for a few days but then this other thing i have to wear for three weeks and im not suppose to drive but screw that...but that kinda depressed me today cuz now i have to go for an MRI and i guess my foot is pretty fucked up cuz it has an extra bone in it and the area around is filled with liquid and its just not a good thing..so next week I guess I'll know if i need surgery or something else to help it : Next we got the fact that drivers ed ends in 2 days :(..now im happy that i dont have to waste my time with that anymore but i love going there and talking to the people, i made some really great friends..hopefully vanessa and I can hang out some time and olivia..but the thing im gonna miss most is this one guy. I have such a crush on him and its scaring me cuz i dont even know him that well we've only talked a few times. His names Trevor and I dunno i feel like a little kid when i see him cuz my stomache gets butterflies and stuff, like i love dan still that wont change, not anytime soon but i cant wait for dan forever well i guess i probably will but i dunno i wanna have some fun and date and stuff, hes happy with his life now, once i was out he became content and now i want to be happy. I know in the next two days I gott say something to him, i think he knows i like him cuz i asked this one kid to find out if he has a girlfriend, lol well im still waiting to find back about that, i really hope he doesnt have a girlfriend...and the best thing is is that he works at an ice cream place in endwell and he goes to UE and i dunno i just think hes really good looking and funny and i wanna get to know him better...hopefully these next two days something good for once will happen well im gonna get to bed cuz i am sooo exhausted...my mom is going to syracuse tomorrow so i have the house to myself, hopefully I'll be able to walk a little better...I really hope life gets better soon, i cant take much more disappointment...but on a brighter note, 16 days till my 17th brithday