The past few days I have really been missing dan. I know that i have to move on and I need to get over it but its easier said then done. I havent talked to him at all in 1 whole week and i havent seen him in 3 but i think about him almost every minute of the day. I know that we probably wont get back together, maybe never maybe not for a long time, but even if we did it will never be the same and i think thats what sucks the most. I just wanna know how you stop loving somebody and if this feeling will ever go away? I dont even think i'd be this upset if dan would just say something to me or just be my friend because atleast i would still be a part of his life..but then again maybe that wouldnt be a good thing cuz then i may never get over him. I dont know, i just feel really lonely..like not in the sense that nobody cares about me lonely cuz i have amazing friends that im surrounded by constantly but i feel alone in the sense that I lost the one good thing in my life the one thing that i could rely on for everything, the one person that when i was feeling awful or when i was feeling great would be there for me too..even for stupid little things that happened i could go call him and tell him..the one person that just loved me for who i was and didnt care when i messed up but still loved me cuz i was the most important thng to him..thats why i feel alone cuz i dont have that anymore and part of me doesnt want that with anybody else..sure i'll find someone eventually i hope but nothing will be like it was with dan cuz he was the first and ur first love is the one you'll always remember...