Summer~ This summer is definitely kicking ass. It's one of the better ones I've had. I'm torn becuz like last summer was amazing cuz dan and I were together and we experienced many things and all but this summer its finally about my friends. Like last summer i swear i barely ever saw them i was too preoccupied with Dan and now I see them almost everyday and we hang out all the time and its great. I do miss Dan though and I wish he coulda seen how great this summer could have been cuz i was willing to balance everything out with him but he denied that chance and i dont think he's enjoying his summer 100% but oh well, im having fun so thats all that matters. Life~ Lifes pretty good at the moment, havin fun..have lots of money from my birthday always a big plus. Start workin next week, i'll be working 5-10 which means 4 hours with people there and then 1 hour closing up..should be fun hope i dont screw up. Umm, my moms kinda annoying me lately all she wants to talk about is her stupid house and shit and about things i care less about..she doesnt wanna hear anything i have to say or take one minute to realize im not perfectly happy but whatever. Dunno what else to say about life except im just doing what i want to do, fuck what people expect of me or what people want from me I'm just gonna make myself happy from now on.. Friends~ All I can say is thank god for them. I dont think i woulda made it through this breakup without them, cuz whenever im devastated and need them they're always there. Boys~ ughhh, the one subject that i dont have anything good to say about. Boys suck! I'm giving up on them..when u want one, they dont want you..if one wants you then you dont want them..whats the deal? Err, i like this one boy but he is in love with this other girl who doesnt like him back so therefore nothing will happen between me and him. Then theres Dan, i'm kindda giving up all hope on that matter. I dunno what to say to him anymore, i inivted him to a party im having on friday but knowin him he probably wont show. Some of my friends say that once summers over he'll want to get back together..but hes good at hiding emotions so i dunno..my guess is no but then i think about everything we've been through together and im like how can we not get back together..but most likely we wont. I think that im done with guys for the rest of high school unless someone amazing comes around or if dan does..other then that, im done with guys and relationships..i wont mind a makeout of two but no more long term shit if the guy isnt worth it. Alright well these were my amusing thoughts for the day..I'll write sometime later