Okay so yeah..today definitly did not go as I thought it would. Well Rob and I decided we were gonna hang out today so i woke up and showered and was getting ready and was on the phone with steph trying to figure out what to wear when I checked my messages online and saw that Dan left a lot. So i look at them and they're like dont go out with Rob, he'll hurt you like i did..i need you, im jealous and i dont want you falling in love with someone else and i want to be with you and i miss you...so yeah started crying cuz i was angry and upset and i started talking to him and was kinda like u cant just all of a sudden decide you miss me cuz u dont want me to be with someone else and hes like its not like that i miss you and i wanna be with you...so i said something else and he was like whatever, just go and i was like if u dont want me to, i wont..thinking he'd be like no thats ok but no he was like lets go to lunch on me so i just figured if he was actually acting this way i might as well give him a chance..so i texted rob and i felt soooo awful cuz i was really happy about seeing him and i just said that something came up and i cant do anything im soo sorry...well all day long he kept texting me and calling me and i felt soo bad but dan was getting mad cuz he kinda wouldnt leave me alone but whatever so i went out to lunch with dan and it was alright, i told him something that upset him a lot but he wasnt mad so it was all good..then we went back to my house and we talked and he said he wanted to be with me and i was so scared cuz i didnt know if this was something he truly wanted but i asked him if he was sure and he said he was never more sure about anything in his life and then he told me he wanted to be with me forever..so we talked about more things about how things have to be different and i made sure he knew how mean he was before and he apologized and said that he was stupid..so then later we went over to the sanders for a little get together and of course i had a stomache and dan wasnt too thrilled to be there so we left early and came back here again and just layed on the couch and kissed and laughed and i dunno, it was like normal? It feels like the past 2 months didnt exist...but rob left me a message on the computer it was really nice hes just like i didnt know u had a b/f (which i didnt at the time)..and hes like well you're so beautiful and sweet but i'll leave yu alone but then he put a sad face and i felt sooo awful cuz i really liked that kid but then again i've known him 2 days whereas dan and i wre together for a year and a half...i dunno, i dont wanna jinx anything but hopefully dan has changed and atleast now i know what to do and what not to do