and everythings a mess and i look at him and wonder then dream about him but it makes me sick we were a mistake and i told him that but i just want to hold him and eat a banana in his bed almost too warm his soft skin and nakedness hes so comfortable within himself and his hair that smelled like you-have-to-guess and his perfect lips and the most beautiful eyes youll ever see well xcept for him this guy is just lust the other one i hate to love