so i had my highschool sweetheart had my main squeeze... I loved him, I love him... maybe i wasn't in love but this could've gone on for too long, say forever. Too much work too much loss and sacrifice went into him... it ended, i ended it. It's okay. this new guy, i have so much lesser feelings for him, does that make sense but i like it so much more! We spend every night together, and damn it doesn't get old, i like everything about him, granted i don't see this maturing into a relationship that i'd want to keep for years on end but its so good, just SOOOOOO good. I know it will end cleanly and neatly and you wont have to pick up my scattered peices on the floor. My hearts being lifted. This is so good. I feel lucky. Thank you Brandon.