i have hella writers block, just a while ago everything was going smoothly... what happened the last sight i see an apparition that haunts me with the way i want to hold you but can't your not solid surreal and after all these dreaded moments leading up i can't even feel the way i wanted you to that's what i'm afraid of losing what i now think of you a hard hit form reality to find out your nothing special just average like you or me or me all alone again haunted and loathed never fully clothed in my barrier that keeps space between you and i, lord i've never let anyone in so if i need saving how will i change? i'll die...