Seriously, I'm light headed my feet feel leaden Jaded no hope for getting faded that smoke just wont fill these lungs wanting something stronger to intoxicate me and take me away love me stronger and I'll stay I don't even know who I am anymore I'm blurry It's fizzled out held in by all my doubt nothing to live for no furry it's so blurry like the pages behind your eyes like I've said and it's melted into me I forget who I used to be, what I stood for All those fights crying myself to sleep at night But doing it for the right now I'm lonely without discriminating watch me as I be fading lines falling in on one another not caring about someone to love her these days numbed out can't see my wy through these clouds past memories make it loud I don't remember you your voice and smell and what we went through I've loved you up till now so lay it down ... I still lose they way I've turned out, got me floored It's my fault, I closed these doors...