...yet something is hanging on to me bearig pressure on my chest... but i want hope to evade me, i know what i crave and desire is not tangible nor do i think it will ever be, i need to be happy with what i have. lay the cavity in my heart, down for everyone to see, to know whats been done. god, it aches to know i cannot do a thing to ensure my fate, i don't know if i'll ever get over this mistake, someone once said loving you was enough... but i? for me it had to go both ways i am not content to know that i had nothing when you kissed me,just lust. life really tore me down when you came around. i want to scratch myself raw for you to see what you forced upon me... but i know you hate this so i'll let you be.