so i saw you yesterday you didn't smile what did I expect, i should've known it would be one of my regrets to let you go and I'm pretty sure it's too late to get you back too late for the appreciation to come I was so fucked up so goddamned drunk I see your face and I run for the beer case I didn't think i'd drink it all away but there it goes I can feel from my head all the way down to my toes the numb of knowing you aren't here anymore don't want to bear this sore here it comes that depression creeping in the reality of the whole thing seeping in and the whole goddamned world growing dim not really knowing if its worth it to live you may think it's petty to feel like this i have no right to endure this pain it's been so long cradling my shame mouthing your name shedding unstopable tears pouring salt in my wounds till they seer and crackle, won't let me forget you down to my soul if you weren't so goddamned stubborn if i wasn't so goddamned stubborn i wouldn't be alone