and the secrets cross my mind from time to time in the intake of those memories in my aching brain i dont love you im jaded i want to die sometimes but i laugh alot and i'm happy when you meet me goofy too youd fall in llove with me they always do then they leave me they say i'm so haunting like a spell but it vanishes and theyre left with bleeding beauty that stains their heart and their clothes and if they leave me i'll finally love them back like theyve been wishing for but if they stay i'll push them away i guess its a test to prove yourself to me no ones never hurt me i cant trust you theres no one theyve all broke me and i dont blame them i am so easy to use when i'm vulnerably and i'm always vulnerable its a disease terminal