I am we are sad and lonely and forever the lives before are weaving me into the wrong one and I don't know how to take it when you say this don't know how to breathe your a sadist and I love the bloody tears and the rift in your reality and I want so much from you but it's unfair to us all in our own we will fall in the dirt from which we are made sadness cannot evade temperatures between us in our how do i live i don't know, i just am living in this changing wheel and the things i say are purely for play bacause all i want to do is cry staring into your pretty face for long intervals and i think i'll just melt away things won't stay i just want to be messy one more time with you hold me like you mean it more than anything you've meant before i will you to care but you said you adore me i can't accept that when you make me feel like i'm drowning lightheaded nothing in to breathe just now, now, it's gone leave like i've said so many times before i won't hold my breath...