Thursday was the last day that I haven't cried on. You can tell that something is going on in my life by the number of private entries. Please be Ok. I love you so much. What can I do? Truly, though, what difference can I make anymore? I don't have any effect on anything. I can't make anyone feel happy, I can't make anyone feel sad. But then again, I never really have been able to. Mainly because I've never really had really good friends who cared that much. Just friends who were prepared to hear my secrets. And then tell them to everyone else. ~ How can it hurt When I feel no pain How can it heal If I look the same I’ve been searching all my mornings For the last breath of a dream Are you drowning or just waving ‘Cause I’m tearing at the seams I wanna live And I wanna breathe Always thought you’d be the one to set me free But I can forgive ‘Cause you make me believe in something more Now I only wanna live if I find Find somebody to die for Find somebody to die for How can you lose If it’s not a game How can you love If you’re never gonna change I’ve been searching all my mornings For the last breath of a dream Are you drowning or just waving ‘Cause I’m tearing at the seams I wanna live And I wanna breathe Always thought you’d be the one to set me free But I can forgive ‘Cause you make me believe in something more Now I only wanna live if I find Find somebody to die for Gotta find my way Through this maze of my desire Come what may Bitter lover wasting time You might say I’m chasing shadows in my mind But there’s a light that guides my way to all I live for Somebody to die for I wanna live And I wanna breathe Always thought you’d be the one to set me free But I can forgive ‘Cause you make me believe in something more Now I only wanna live if I find Find somebody to die for