4.46pm Bah, I was in a good mood earlier. Now I'm not. Damnit. I was in a good mood on the bus and talking to this guy called James about Scout camps and things that we had been on, because he went to my Scout group but left before I joined, and there were a few stories about him that I had been told over the months that I have been there. Anyway, as anyone who knows me will be aware of, when I get worked up or excited about something, I get pretty strange and just do weird hand gestures and things. So there's this guy who sits next to me a lot and he just gave me this look of kind of 'what the hell are you doing?' for talking to this guy and getting so, ahem, animated about stuff. And then he exchanged looks with this girl who I actually really like, and she was Ok afterwards. Anyway, he was just being irritating, so I kind of hit him, but only as a joke. And then he just went 'bitch! what's your problem?' and it just made me feel about this big. Anyway. He shouldn't annoy me. He's just pathetic and annoying and needs to be ignored for a day or two. Ok, so now I will be really pathetic, but you mustn't tell anyone that I am. Shush. I actually sent him a text saying sorry because I care so bloody much what he thinks of me. And the crap thing is, I don't fancy him. Seriously. I promise I don't. I've been over this in my head, and I don't. But I care so much what he thinks of me. And I really hate the part of me that gives a damn.