4.27pm I know I am a bad friend. And, no, there's no need to deny it, any of you who think you have reason to. I'm not saying this because I want people to confirm in my mind that I am in fact a wonderful person I just can't see it, I wanted to apologise. I am one of those people who is very tempremental. I flit from friendship to friendship without giving much thought to who I'm hurting. That's a lie, I do give it thought, but for some reason my body seems incapable of making it right. I go with a new fashion. I have a laugh. But then when the going gets tough, when I might have to be supportive, I run away. And you know what, I don't want to make excuses, because it's just a rubbish thing of me to do, but it's because I'm scared. I'm scared that someone I care about so much would get hurt and I could do nothing to stop it. I'm scared that I can't tell them how much they mean to me and they won't accept it. So what happens instead is I practically ignore them when they are upset. How is that helping me or them? It's just making everything worse. I leave them out, I go off with other people. I have done this to two people certainly so far. I am so sorry. I don't mean to hurt you. I admit it now, maybe I can change it? I understand if you hate me. ----- I really want to make this a private entry.