First kisses and impossible wishes

Well as you may be able to tell by the title of my entry, I had my first kiss at Kirsty's party on Tuesday. Yeah I know, I'm sad, I'm 14, whatever, I don't really care. All I care about is that I was drunk and I'm not sure I should've been doing it. I like the guy alright, he's lovely, but I've only met him twice and I think I shouldn't have let him do something that I did. Which was a little bit stupid of me. And this time (last time I went to Kirsty's party I was with this guy called Grant) I'm not going to get worked up about Steve. Sure, he's a nice guy, and I probably would go out with him if he asked, but he was drunk and I highly doubt it so there's no point in getting all exicted when I know nothing's going to come out of it. I have a weird feeling of contentment now. Like, finally I've got it out of the way. I thought it would be really weird but it's not. It just feels really natural. Mind you, I wasn't exactly in my right mind. We were both pretty pissed. I remember before I had kissed anyone people always used to tell me how natural it felt and I used to just get really annoyed (which I know everyone will be with me by now - sorry), but it actually is. Don't hit me. Anyway, this is the longest entry I've written in a while without forcing myself, and I could write a lot more, but I'm not going to because the more I write the more I'm going to piss a lot of people off. I'm sorry. Again. I always am.
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I don't really trust people either and I doubt I'll leave, I haven't been able to part in like 2 years so yeah. Hope things are ok
about my ex n how i still liked him n i told him n then he said he still liked me back n stuff like that n idk it was really confusing
same with me, latter but not former.
xHUGx
i can barly read your diary with your back round.
[Anonymous]
eh scary white diary.
is ur sexy hair still sexy or did it go crappy in das wash?
xHUGx
[Anonymous]
we broke up a while ago like 2 months ago

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[Anonymous]
wel at least it is not deadified. ul always be sexy anyway ;)
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