How stupid can I get? How stupidly dense can one person get? How could he possibly like me? Why would he? And I'm sitting there, and the realisation dawns. He likes her. He also likes her. And he likes me. In the same, stupid, annoying friendly way. It's making my stomach turn over. My head's spinning. I feel dizzy. Why don't I just accept it? Stop telling myself that anyone will ever fall in love with this. I'm not going to get a happy ending, I won't get a happy middle, I won't get a happy beginning. I'll just get a truckload of crap. And it's all my own fault. There's no fate in this anymore. There never was. That's just what I blamed all those stupid mistakes on. Take responsibility. Be your own failure. Please, please love me