Imitation of life

by damned
Feeling: dandy
4.36pm I was really happy recently. Like, really truly properly happy. I didn't really mind about little things that annoyed me, they were secondary. Suddenly now little things are creeping back up on me. I mean, I knew I'd never get rid of some personality traits, but I thought they might have subsided slightly. Now suddenly they've decided to come back again. I'm starting to get paranoid again. Paranoid that everyone hates me and everyone's just pretending to be my friend. I'm incredibly paranoid about everyone having to talk about little things that I've done, and I start interpreting little looks between people that might mean nothing, but to me mean that they are completely tired of me talking and wish I would shut up. Hey, it's nice being weird. Overall, despite me getting all scared and things just now, I have actually had quite a good day. So I will just ignore all those feelings and smile the night away.
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here i am, i am commenting. do not be sad razzy.
ok...what to say...i should comment on your entry...crap....what was it about.
*goes and looks*
Its ok to be a little paranoid sometimes, as long as you know its just paranoia and the people around you dont actually think any of the things you think up.
I'm glad you were happy razzy. thats always good.
xHUGx
well, like i said, it isnt the kind of decision i should have a problem with...
no its not jono. i just don't have great experiences with taking non-christians on christian holidays. for some reason i don't think inviting zoe to SS was a great idea. partly because i really don't think shell get anything out of it, SS isnt aimed at non-christians, and also (this is where the selfishness comes in) i dont think i'd get as much out of it. i get too self concious. but shes invited now, so there we go.
Thats good then. i mite have to not stand with you in some of the sessions though, i can see it being very awkward.

i dont know how he is, i havent spoken 2 him recently at all. which is very sad. but i'll see him tomorrow, then let you know.
True true.

Really? that makes me happy. i hope he does like me, at least a little bit. you know tim? well, you don't know him, but you might know of him, i think he mite be getting me a bear from the bear factory for xmas, bless him.