Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men? The Shadow knows! - The Shadow 10:52 PM Well, it surely is amazing how fast things can turn around for me. There I was, thinking I had a sure shot with Jen, when my demon Ex starts to tell me that Jen is annoyed with me. And also starts picking at me because of some other stuff I have no control over, namely stuff my parents do. So Kayla won't talk to me anymore, and neither will Jen. So I went from being reasonably happy, with a few friends to being completely and utterly alone again. But Kayla and Jen are gone. Out of my reach. And the night I heard about Jen being annoyed with me, I came to a conclusion. How many times do I try to reach out and my hand gets slapped, that I just stop trying? Not really sure. I know now that if somebody wants me, they're going to come to me. The last two times I made the effort I got shot all to hell, and now I'm all alone again. The hell with it. But almost as quickly as Jen and Kayla removed themselves from my life, two new girls placed themselves back into their positions. I didn't put them there either. They both just showed interest in me. Carolyn and Sam. Carolyn I actually met in sorta a humourous way. While I was working she had to cover the greeters at the store, and it was raining out. And as I was filling out my paperwork for the hour, she made a comment about the stupidity of people when its raining, and the stupidity of people in general. So we started talking, and found we had a lot in common. So I guess I kinda like her too, but I'll be damned if I know how she feels about me. But who knows. Sam I already knew from work, but got to know better recently. We were talking at Kayla's party, and recently she's been inviting me to all these parties and junk. I really have no interest in parties of any kind. But today she told me about some party and asked if I wanted to go. And earlier she told me I was going to go to some halloween party as a pimp, and she was going to be my hoe. Yeah right. Not a chance in hell. So it seems like she's interested, but like before, I don't have a damned clue how she feels about me. But whatever. I'm not worried about it. But I'll probably just end up going my own way, the way I always do. Sporting the trenchcoat, with the collar flipped up and walking against the wind.