10:51 PM The title says it all. But if you don't have the patience to read through me rambling on about my girl issues, then don't bother reading past this point. . . . So that girl I rambled on about a few entries back, the one that was supposedly dating that guy but it turns out the rumour wasn't true...has come back with a vengeance. Kinda. She's come back though, and she seems to be all I'm thinking about lately. I finally got to see her again a while ago, and we started getting really friendly again. And she's found out that I like her, so I don't have anything to hide anymore at least. But man...I don't know what's going on here anymore. I hate the fact that whenever I try to get a girl there's always another guy in the equation somehow. That guy from before is still in the picture unfortunately, which was a situation I've been trying to avoid. And I can't. Last time that happened and I was feeling down for God knows how long. But I didn't do the selfish thing and make her choose between me and another guy. I was almost thinking I had to do the same thing here, but its already way past that point. Because she's already started thinking about me or this other guy. So it looks like I'm in for the long run. Which is good? I don't know anymore. I just know that I'm part of a decision, one that will either make me happy or unhappy. In which case I'll have to get myself over it and blah, blah, blah. Christ on a bike...I don't know how I get myself into half the situations I do. Meanwhile everybody else I know manages to avoid them altogether. It's odd. They avoid bad situations and end up happy. I end up in a situation I can't avoid for having already been placed in it, and I'm worried about everything. And will most likely end up unhappy. But then again, that usually happens to me, especially recently. But that's just me apparently. Good ol' Thomas, Tom, Frodo...whatever you call me...who is there for everybody, but never seems to get what he wants. It's almost saddening. Sod it...I don't know what to do anymore about all this. Once, just once, especially after recently...with all the guys I know going for a girl even though they all knew I liked her. And all the affection I've had for any given girl that hasn't been returned because "they were too good of a friend" to my ex. I love how that even though I have nothing to do with her she's still ruining my life. God damn...but whatever. I could go on and on all night just complaining and stuff, but if you've made it thus far I congratulate you. Nobody else would have the patience. But whatever. Not like anybody reads all this anyways. I'm gone.