9:55 PM Well, I had something written in here that was long and nicely written, but the damned thing didn't save right, so I'm gonna have to start from scratch. 2006 in review: Well, last January I was still hitched to the Furry Haired Monster, and I was being a jackass to everybody. I think just about everybody hated me, but meh. I don't even deny the fact I was a jackass anymore. Because its true. The rest of the winter and spring rolled on agonizingly slow, and I was extremely grateful the summer came. I was offered a job at a summer camp I went to a few times as a kid, and as much as I didn't want to leave, I took the job. While I was away I met some interesting people, and made a lot of new friends. I also came to the realization that I really was a jackass, and the reason everybody hated me was because I was being a jackass. So during the summer I prepared myself for the inevitable when I went home. First thing I did was apologize to my parents for being a jackass, and I gained a lot of respect from both of them because I told them flat out I was being a jackass. But there was one more thing I had to do when I got home. Fortunately, the Evil One told me some major bulls**t when I got back that gave me the kick in the ass I needed to go through with it, and I broke up with her, thus removing a major negative influence on my life. When grade 12 started I felt amazing. I felt free, and empowered. I felt like I could conquer any problem that came my way, I felt unstoppable. But that feeling would soon crushed by the fall. All around me people were pairing off, and I was left behind and forgotten more times than I'd like to remember. Sure people included me when they went out with their significant other, but it just felt weird. It was around this time I started having fainting spells. I've only fainted twice, but it was always at a random time, when I was doing random things. Although this was bad for me, it showed me just how much my friends care about me. But winter rolled around, and things like that turned around for me. I started noticing a girl a lot more than I did before, and I grew to like her. With some of the experiences I've had during the fall involving that, I was almost confident nothing would become of it. But then I heard through a good friend of mine that she'd liked me for a really long time, so I got really excited about that. As the days of winter rolled on, I liked her more and more, and one day I heard through another friend that if I asked her out she'd say yes. At first I was kinda shy, and a little hesitant. I found myself at a loss for words, nervous, and I never had the changce to talk to her alone. But we hung out one night with a few friends, and I finally had the chance to talk to her alone. At first, I was nervous again. But as happened in the past, it took a little something to give me the kick in the ass I needed to do what I had to. With the Furry Haired Monster it was the bulls**t, but with this girl she gave me a quick kiss, which worked perfectly. So far its been the best, and I can't wait to see where this goes. But yeah... This has been the year that has changed me the most. I used to be a stupid, arrogant jackass who didn't give a s**t about anybody but himself and his crazy whackjob girlfriend. I slowly turned into a nice guy who was single again, and I became the person who I want to be: the person who doesn't care if you don't like him. The person who doesn't care if he looks better in colour than in black. The person that will always be there for his friends and family, because they were always there for him. I really like where I am in life right now. I'm finally who I want to be, I'm finally with who I want to be with, I've got all my friends back, I've got my family back. I still don't know what awaits me after high school, but I look forward to it with great anticipation.