6:41 PM Semi-Formal yesterday. It wasn't too bad. I actually kinda enjoyed myself. Didn't do much for the first bit, but after Sabrina showed up I had somebody to talk to, aside from Nikki, Sheldon, Adam and Meaghan. Dinner wasn't far off after everybody showed up, and I ended up sitting with Sabrina at a table with Adam and Meaghan, Nikki and Sheldon and Viv. Dinner wasn't too bad, but the dance was full of mostly bad music (no doubt picked by the preps), which after a while gave me a really bad headache. Had some typenol before I left, which made me kinda loopy when everything started. lol =) The dance wasn't too bad, but I had to leave a few times 'cause my head was pounding. Andrew threatened to fart on me if I didn't go back inside a few times, but meh. He didn't. But I danced with Sabrina a few times, and we spent the night with everybody else. Devin danced with me jokingly a few times lol, and while Andrew and Adam were trying to get me to dance Adam humped my leg lol. But I had fun. Sabrina left earlier than I did, but I got a kiss goodbye and she told me she loved me. I ended up calling my dad when all was said and done, and I went home. T'was a fun night. Surprisingly. But today... Today sucked. Spare wasn't too bad. Didn't do much but start writing out some story idea I had. In math the teach was back and we had a test, which I failed. I told him I passed, and he wrote down that I passed. Lunch was alright, though boring. I sat in the library with Sabrina because nobody else was around and my knees were aching, so we sat on the couches. Music Change: Sleepwalker - Megadeth But then people were @$$holes. I don't mind if people make plans and don't include me, because it happens a lot and I'll get over it. But when people make plans that include me and I get replaced by somebody, I get pissed. Which is why I'm home tonight. Ugh. People suck sometimes. But I'll be fine. I always am. 7:04 PM I've finally figured out what I'm doing after high school. (gasp) I've realized that I really need to get out of here. I need to get out of this house and be independant for a while, learn to stand on my own two feet. I'm gonna have to work my ass off trying to find a job and work even harder once I've got one, to start making money for myself. If I've got enough, then I'm gonna look for a place. Definately isn't going to be big and fancy, but it'll be enough to house me and my stuff. I need to do this for myself. I need to become independant. I don't even care what my parents want to do. Because I know exactly what they want me to do, and as much as I care about them, it isn't going to happen. 9:17 PM Music: The Deceived - Trivium Holy crap. It's the friggin march break. Plans: (hopefully) - Lots of job hunting. - Band practices. (whenever everybody is free) - Probably lots of guitar playing. - Getting out of the house as much as possible. Hopefully anyways. I need to shave tomorrow, print off some resumes and go job hunting for a while before I do anything, and when I get back I'll make plans. But the way things have been going, by the time I get home, people's plans will have already been made, and I'm going to get stuck at home again. Which is why I'm a little iffy about the "Getting out of the house as much as possible" aspect of my plans. Oh well.