7:42 PM Not feeling so well today. Not sure why, but when I started to think about it I couldn't help but have my thoughts drawn back that girl I rambled on about in entry 184. My sister had an interesting talk with her a few weeks back, a conversation that ended up with them both in tears, admitting stuff to each other that they never would have told anyone before. Apparently this girl missed me something fierce, and almost needed me. She's one of those girls hell bent on staying in with fashion and all that stuff, and I'm really not. And she felt drawn to me because I wasn't like any other guy she'd ever met. She was the bright center of attention, and I was the dark moody one in the corner avoiding interaction with people. And she missed me for that. She missed being able to have an intellectual conversation with someone who doesn't string together sentences with the word "like", and someone who would tell it like it is, listen to her and make her feel important, and give her sensible advice when she needed it. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to talk to her about this. But then again, I've been stuck here. Working and sleeping. The usual stuff for the dark moody one in the corner I think, while she's off working at the camp I wanted to be at, with some guy. Christ on a bike....there just is no justice in the world. She dropped a hint that the guy she was with now would probably crash and burn like the rest of the guys she's dated, simply because they're from the same crowd, and quite frankly, they're not very bright. Unlike myself, she said. Which is an encouragement I suppose. But I have come to the conclusion that I don't think I'll ever really be over this girl. I wish could say I was, but I guess I'm not. But that's just me. The dark moody guy in the corner. 11:18 PM Well, I'm back. Nothing else to say really, except a girl from my past has returned. Sounds all epic, but she is the sister of a girl I really used to like back in the day. Back in the day meaning grade 7-8. So I was kinda excited about that, mainly because I haven't talked to her since back then, and it was kinda nice to talk to somebody I hadn't seen in so long. But meh. I'll have to talk to her tomorrow sometime after I get some sleep. Can't wait. =) But with that, I guess I'll be leaving. Not sure what else to say, but you can bet I'll be back tomorrow sometime before I have to work. Stupid closing shifts.. Oh well.