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Listening to: Blackened - Metallica
Feeling: empty
12:43 PM Slept well last night, although I had a crazy whack dream. At least it didn't get me up, which is good. And I slept in too, until around 10. Unfortunately I had some chores to do, but they're all done now, so I've got the rest of the day to loaf around. As far as I know nobody is home, so I'm probably just going to sit around and find something to do today, but its no big deal; I always find myself doing that. Music Change: And Justice For All - Metallica This morning I realized how much of an idiot I truly was. I wanted to give myself a good swift smack to the head, but there were people around and I didn't want to look like an idiot. But I already felt like one, so I guess it wouldn't have made a difference. But yeah... Yesterday, I was sitting around in American History after looking at everything involving the JFK assassination, and I made my own theory as to how he died. Andrew and I also thought of a list of questions that are impossible to answer. Andrew and Frodo's list of questions impossible to answer: 1. What is the meaning of life? 2. Who in the blue hell really did shoot Kennedy? 3. How do the get the caramel into the Caramilk bars? 4. What really did happen to Amelia Earheart? And that's all we've got so far. Hung out with Adam last night too. That was fun, although nobody else was around. I dunno how many people we called to see if they wanted to come out, but each time somebody was busy, so we ended up back at his place after trying to buy pizza. T'was fun. But this morning I woke up and I felt really odd. As though something bad was going to happen, although nothing has happened. And I haven't done anything to make anything bad happen. But I dunno. I got the feeling that something bad was going to happen, and something was going to come to an end. 1:05 PM Do you want what I want? Desire not a thing I hunger after independence, Lengthen freedom's ring. "Eye of the Beholder" - Metallica 4:32 PM Finally found something to do for now. Too bad it doesn't involve me getting outside. 'Cause that's what I was really hoping for. But meh. Whatever works.
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Im surprised that Im actually saying civilized words to you right now, but I just had to say how ironic it is that you felt like something bad was going to happen, and something was going to end. Cause there is something thats over, not what you thought, but you tend to get what you deserve.
ya know? one question i always always always ask myself is "why am i here?" [sigh] i wish i knew why exactly i was here. but not yet :[
lmao, our awesome questions. :)
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no. you're not. lol. yep. i'm still waiting for my purpose here to become clear to me. til then, i have nothing to do but wait.