I think we're going downtown today I need to look for cool punker patches for my jeans, don't ever try to climb over an old fence. Splinters hurt. I am such a liar, and it blew up in my face. I didn't want to hang out with her so I blamed it on someone, and then when I get home, planning to spend time with my mother, whom I love... Once again her stupidity was able to berrate me. She just doesn't have the cappacity to understand what I do, it's so frustrating and that's partly why I am so angry, with everything. I'm starting to like to shop a little too much, it's an addiction. My mother, goddammit, I can't understand her thinking.... I know it's not that big of a deal, but this sorta shit happens all the time, and it never ceases to amaze me of her undying unthinkfulness of others. I am black obsessed, I love it, it comforts me, so I wanted to paint one wall in my room black, and I've got this cleared with my mom and I payed for half of the paint, so the other day she decides to throw it away, without consulting me, she claims to have changed her mind about the black, I don't get it, she doesn't even fit into my life, no one should ever be expected to but still. So she throws it away and doesn't remember me paying half, so I'm short twenty-four dollars, that could've bought me a shirt, and it just pisses me off. She decides things on her own, but my lord, I will do whatever I want, and she knows it, it's just I choose to not do everything in the book sometimes, she is lucky to have me. She's stupid.