This terrain is feeling me up recognition of something more in me so hard to explain and meaningless to just complain but my heart is hurting so unbearably i feel i've never been losing so deeply till now and the lowering of my life has taken the plunge down so many hesitations and negotiations mistakes that left me feeling fake unaware and numb feeling struck to peices dumb... but the unnerving way I once knew you has faded in me I don't need you any longer to just let me breathe my lungs are too filled explosive so take this away from me so much to tell if only i could erase these memories that are so impairing if i only think they bring unquieted nonsense life without friends feeling truly alone but this unhappiness has grown and the nothingness in your eyes has shown into deepness living feels so much like less and to bind me to someone unfailing blindly is growing more and more convincing that I should succumb to ignorance and feel truly while being fake blessed but can i escape this hell and inticipation your memory is my ditation enrichment living in it out of it... gone... we've pretended what we had was sacred for far too long the blending of our worlds the incessant burn the scrambling looking for somewhere to turn and for love we all yearn our incantations aren't heard and mistakes unlearned but our deepest desires are lured like mine by those eyes I can't help thinking about from time to time in the absence of life I'd be just fine...