Dear Beth, I know you think you loved him, and he broke up with you. I know you think you loved him. I love you, girl, I just wish I could do more. So he broke up with you and still wanted to be friends and made an honest, though small, effort to hang out, keep in touch, that sort of thing. Well girl, tonight was so awkward between you two, and even though you're three years behind him, you're so ahead... The snide remarks he made, you'd think it was you who broke things off... but no, bitterness is just bitterness and jaded people have much too much baggage. Just too damn much. And yeah Jason was being cool to the both of us. So give his friend props on that. Sorry this is so long, sorry you'll never read this but I just have to get this off my chest to somewhere, or something.... just out in the open. I'm so sorry you don't need this, I'm sorry when you cried I didn't know how to quite console you. I just feel a little helpless around you, like some people are so easy to figure out... give them a hug, wipe their tears tell 'em he was never worth their fears and that their heart will mend with a little love and glue. But the thing is Beth, I know you really hear me, I mean you breath in what I say and it makes me feel so incompetent, like gosh i should be a better friend. Girl, I'll stick by you till the very end. I want to break the muther fucker into peices in places physical violence doesn't reach. You deal so wonderfully, I admire everything you do. Your mom and her situation, classes/school, people... youre just amazing and I don't think you see how well you cope. I just don't want to have to wake up one day and hear you drowned in all this mess, don't want to hear you can't take this anymore... may I take a little weight off your shoulders? I don't know girl but lemme tell you now you deserve the whole wide world. Love, Jenna