so I finally found out what my best friend is getting me for my birthday... I love her.... Beth, do you know I love you? Shes getting me a stripper!!!! A STRIPPER? She knows me oh so well!! Not only will I laugh till I cry but I can't help liking the male physique... though he'll probably be gay it's just about appreciating an oiled up, over-sexed man... wearing body glitter, right guard deodorant with a fake-n-bake tan. I love nudity... people should just walk around naked ALL THE TIME. so i'm getting this primal urge to buy another guitar... an acoustic with a hookup... I have a classical (broader neck, nylon strings... yadda, yadda) the thing is i don't think i'm worthy of another guitar. all the things i've written are purely because i was pissed off and needed to vent or to cry without crying. but all music, well that i consider "music" comes from a soulfull place so i don't really think it matters if i'm mediocre as long as it evokes emotion? yeah. confession......... don't tell anyone..... beth you're the only one who'll probably read this. no one reads these... when i have a guy in my life that i stay loyal too... yeah we have sex like three times a day, and yeah it's good, and yeah, for the most part,the feeling's there but when i'm SINGLE AND JUST CHILLIN i get this crazy sex drive... but i get really picky. so i end up not having sex, but then if someone comes along i want, ahhhh tortured emo guys, SEX!! yeah jeesh good god, i haven't found it, i probably wont but goddamn its so good having casual sex...... too bad i've never done it. the single life.