So my song i've been perfecting with my guitar is going real, real good. My voice fits the peice. But I have a gnarly soar throat and a headache. It's been two days I've been making love to this song, one more day to go.... hahahah. He's dissapeared off the face of the earth, no one's heard from him. His voicemail has changed, it's not his voice anymore, just an electronic voice. I miss him so much his friend and I hooked up and I know that I wouldn't ever get back with him after this but I want to know that he's safe. What's the secret. I miss Kyle, yes, but he's faded and he isn't a seething wound anymore. I'm over Brandon I thought, at least it doesn't hurt like Kyle, now that was gut wrenching ...Brandon has left me with doing things I wouldn't normally do. But there are other things, casualties that I didn't think would be so unbelievable meaningless and yummy. I feel vindictive, I feel so alone, and I'm so sick right now, it's nto that bad for me yet, I just don't think I've gotten my reality check.