I did absolutely nothing today, which felt good because even though i don't have school and hardly work, i always seem to be busy for some reason. Anyways this guy T called tonight and i was happy about that because i haven't heard from him in about a week. I didn't pick up though because my phone was charging in the other room i didn't hear it ring. T is my best friend's dealer, and i was introduced to him not long ago when she was buying weed. He has this crush on me, which is cool because i can get free e from him. I made out with him a couple of times and the first time we made out (we were on e), he was so amazed at the way i kissed him i think he fell in love. He told my friend it was like this crazy passionate amazing feeling when we kissed. Honestly i didn't really feel anything. I just kiss everybody like that. Anyways he called me last week to meet up and i chilled at his place for a few hours. We didn't do any drugs but we did make out a bit. He said it was even better than last time because we were sober and it wasn't based on fakeness... At one point when we were kissing i suddenly stopped, i guess cause it was getting too intense, and he said to me "you know you're never gonna feel this with any other guy" and i said "how do you know?" and he goes "Because i've never felt this with another girl." I'm not sure if it was a line but if it was it was a pretty fckn good one. Anyways he talks about it so much that i'm starting to feel it too when we make out. Why is it like that? At first you're not really into a guy and then slowly he becomes more and more appealing to you... For guys it's usually the opposite. He'll be really into a girl until he gets what he wants and then the interest level goes way way down. And i've never seen a guy not be attracted at all to a girl at first and then suddenly start liking her. In any case i tried calling him back like two hours ago but his sister said he was out, so that's that. i guess i'm going to bed early-ish tonight.