I got home at 2am this morning, which is way earlier than any other day this week probably. The night kinda sucked. I was really not in the mood for clubbing, so i suggested to L that we predrink to get in the mood. She said no, so i met her downtown feeling all tired. Then this guy friend of mine called me, whining about this girl who dumped him, and he wanted to meet up because he was so depressed, so i said ok, and once he got there, the lineup for one of the clubs we were going to was so long, and there were so many people, that i got really antisocial suddenly and didn't feel like doing anything except maybe going for a coffee. L complained, saying i was really boring, so i agreed to go to this other club where our exes were gonna be, but it was really small and stupid, and we danced a bit but i was really not into it. Our exes never showed up, either... granted we only stayed til like 12:45, but it's probably better i didn't see him. I probably wouldn't've been all cool and shit like i wanted. So we left that place and went to some little bar where one of Ls friends was. That place was chill because there weren't alot of people and we could just sit around and talk. But L was bored, of course, so we left. Then her boyfriend called her, and he was downtown at this other club, but he was with this other guy, too... My ex friendboy, that i stopped talking to when he fucked my best friend, V, so i really didn't want to see him, So me and my other guy friend went for coffee, and he drove me home. It's really crappy hanging out with L, lately. She's always negative about everything, she's fucking jealous and insecure, never satisfied. She puts me down to feel better about herself. i don't really wanna hang out with her anymore, but at the same time i feel so bad because there was a point when we were so close. We started hanging out like 2 years ago, and at first it was amazing. It felt like we had this special connection because we were really similar in some ways but different from other people, and it was great because we could just hang out and joke around all the time,... But now she's just always so negative and depressing, it's not fun anymore. All we do is fight and argue. Basically i don't really wanna be her friend anymore, but i can't just end it because of all the things that she did for me, like helping me get through really rough moments... But now i feel as though i've grown up, and gotten past those really childish things, and she just hasn't. She's still in the same place she was 2 years ago and i really just want to move on and grow up. Whatever she just really sucks. It's just not fun with her anymore. I don't know what to do... it's like we're in a relationship or something and i want to break up with her but i don't know how! Oh! Also, tonight CCG is working, so i'm gonna go meet her at the strip club to talk to this doorman guy. It turns out She has a crush on him but because of her boyfriend she can't really do anything. CCG's a really Really kinky girl though, and she has this crazy fantasy, that i shall not reveal, that involves this doorman... So she wants me to help her get him to do it, without her bf finding out and everything. I'm supposed to bring it up in the conversation as though it was my idea, and then get them to do it ... I really don't know how i'm going to pull this off, but wish me luck!